The “Make My Mummy Better” campaign has
been set up to fund treatment that I am receiving
in Germany for metastatic breast cancer
Registered Charity Address:
Friends Supporting Friends
Make My Mummy Better Campaign
Old Courthouse
High Street
Fairford
Gloucestershire
GL7 4AD
Registered Charity No. 1113977
Thursday 24th September 2009
It’s been over three months since my last blog entry. It’s been a tough few months. I had forgotten how hard the chemo is on your body. I re-started chemo on the 12th June and was feeling the side effects of the drugs instantly. The tiredness was quite difficult to get used to again. I had felt so great while off treatment. The constantly feeling tired again was getting me down a bit.
It was also difficult as I was feeling really tired throughout the whole summer holidays. This meant that I didn’t get to do as much as I had hoped with Mya during her holidays. I am very lucky that Simon is such a hands on dad. He and the rest of the family made sure that Mya was kept entertained. It did make me sad though when the day before her birthday I was too tired to bake her cake. I could have bought one, but I thought it would be nice to make one. Unfortunately, I spent most of the day asleep as I was feeling exhausted. So Simon ended up baking the cake with help from Mya. He’d never baked a cake before, but it turned out lovely. Luckily, I was feeling better on the day of her party so we all had a fantastic day.
The website has not been updated recently for a number of reasons, the main one being the tiredness. But I also feel that I just can’t focus or concentrate on anything. So anything that I would have written would probably not have made any sense at all. I also needed a break from it all to concentrate on my treatment. Sometimes it all just gets too much and I don’t want to talk about it. I want to spend the time when I am feeling ok doing things with Mya or other things that have nothing to do with the cancer.
I am having my 6th cycle of treatment next Friday. I need to speak to my Oncologist about the doses as am having real difficulties with my hands, feet and mouth. It’s slowly been getting worse, but I think it really started getting close to unbearable after the 4th cycle. It is a known side effect of the chemo (Capcitabine) and the monoclonal antibody drug (Lapatinib). My hands and feet are cracked all over to the point where there are numerous areas that bleed. It is so painful to walk at times. A few weeks ago they had got so bad that I felt so low that I just needed my mum and dad. I felt like a real baby, but it is amazing how much strength our parents give us, no matter how old we get.
I think even though my body is struggling with everything I feel strong mentally. I do of course get the wobbles occasionally but am determined to get through it all.
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